It is agonizing to see them hurt. There is nothing you can do. When your child is hurt, scared or sad, you cannot reach into that screen and surround them. You just have to sit there and feel it too.
When your child cries. You cry. When they are lied to and betrayed…you feel betrayed. You get angry. When they are scum-bagged, you do not like that scum bagger. When they are played, you do not like that player. When they are lied to, you do not like that liar. How many times do we have to keep telling ourselves; “It’s just a game!” “It’s just a game!” “It’s really, just a game!”
It is with great pride, when you see the person they’ve become. When they are real. When they are genuine. Polite. Generous. When they are true to themselves and their alliances. When they win competitions, or help their alliances win. It brings joy to see such a competitive, winning spirit.
It is with fear & apprehension, when they might do, or say something that you do not want the rest of the world to see or hear. Including everyone in your hometown, your whole family , your co-workers and just about everyone you know. When they get too sippy, (BB, you really need to watch the alcohol allotments) you want to reach right in there and say ok! You’re cut off kid. Remember now… you’re on National TV!
What about their hormones?? And yes, this age has more then they know what to do with! OMG! This is waaaay more then a mother ever needed to know about. Please maintain your dignity in there, oh child of mine! Wheeeew!
It can be a bit annoying, to have to talk BB with everyone you run into, and feel you have to explain to them what is going on. Like… go to BigBrother .com and figure it out! Puuuhleeze!
The Big Brother House lurks in your conscience and your sub conscience the whole time they are locked within those walls. How many times have you awoken in the middle of the night and said; “I wonder if they are all right? Or wondered what they are doing?” It has a trickle down effect in all other aspects of your life. The longer they are in there, the more power that house has over you. And I am speaking from two FULL SEASONS right down to the last 3 days. (BOTH TIMES dang it!)
When they leave that house, it is with great relief. Uh huh. It is. . . Your protective mode can finally come down. What an exhausting state to be in for 3 months.
It is with great surprise, and pride and joy to see the support from the million trillion fans. This show is bigger then I could ever imagine it to be. WOW! The fans have picked me up and carried me when I’ve been hurt or down more then once. The fans have celebrated with me and loved on me. Thanks be to them!
It is with fascination, as I watch the bond that these houseguests have made for life. That for the most part… it was just a game in the BB house. Outside of it, they have built many friendships for life. I find myself forgiving the other houseguests for the awful things they have said and done to my child. Especially when they are looking you in the eye and are remorseful. They don’t have to ask for my forgiveness.
Again I’ll say… I needed and longed for the other Mommie-Mommies of the BB All Stars during this time. More then once…
By Ann Pierzina-Killian